Do You Believe in the Power of Transformation?

“Transformation is not an overnight process; it is a journey that begins with a single step – the willingness to change. Acknowledging that something needs to shift in your life is the first crack of light in the darkness. By embracing the willingness to change and embarking on this transformative path, individuals can break free from the shadows of depression and step into the light of a more vibrant and fulfilling life.”

29 August 2024

It’s Day 2. Life seems to continue as usual, from sending the children to school, and going for my morning walk, to trying to solve problems at work and clearing the mess in the house. It looks the same but yet it doesn’t feel the same. Something has changed, definitely.

No, I’m not saying that suddenly I’m feeling so positive and full of energy. In fact, right now, my eyes are actually closing for I slept at 2am last night, after helping my children prepare for their last minute Teachers’ Day gift, and then playing my Monopoly Go mobile game. But the determination to change is there. And I’m slowly striking off items from my endless to-do list. Slowly but surely.

“The happier you are, the more beautiful you become.”

I was out for lunch with the hub and my boy a few hours ago, and I happened to saw this quote in a hair salon. And then I thought to myself, “Am I happy?”. My answer is a definite “No”. I’m not unhappy but just not happy. I might be smiling, but most of the time, it feels more of to hide the sadness, anger and fatigue that I’m experiencing.

But why? What is the root cause to my unhappiness? I tried to search for answers within my head but realised that it won’t be easy. The mind is just too full of thoughts and I could hardly navigate myself within it. I need to tidy it up, which is what I will try to do in the next few days or even weeks, until there’s more clarity.

So, are you genuinely happy? If you are not, I’m encouraging you to take some time off on your own and think through too.